Back to school.

So on Thursday I went back to school, I’m now in year 12 and I was pretty nervous about going back since I’m no longer apart of the main school which just adds to the responsibility of being the eldest in the school. It wasn’t too bad though since I caught up with my friends and the life of a sixth former, is actually pretty good. I like the independence of being a sixth former, the bit of freedom I get by being one and mainly the sense that I am growing up. I’ve also made a couple of new friends which is always nice, so to summarise I’m feeling rather hopeful of the year ahead. I know I only have around two years left of secondary school but I don’t think there’s much point in pondering over the fact, rather I should just live in the moment and work hard day by day, which seems to me an effective plan.

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Advice?

I would reaaaaaaaally appreciate some advice right now, please?

today I went back to school for an induction day into year 12, i haven’t got many friends right now at school, especially not any close friends, and since there are new students coming into my school in September (which Are attending the induction days) I was hoping to make some new friends that way. But I haven’t had much luck, I’ve spoken to a couple of people but I’m finding it hard to find a common interest, and to break the ice. A lot of the current students in my year know most of the new pupils coming in so they’ve already befriended them, which is why I’m at a bit of a loose end. Tomorrow there are some other new students coming in so I’m hoping to have some better luck in actually making a friend. I just want to feel accepted in school and not be a total outcast, so do you guys have any advice at all on how I could make some new friends?

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One of the best days ever!

Today, was one of the best days I’ve had in a long time, it was my last day of my year at main school, (year 11) so no more uniform, and a lot more freedom next year. As a school tradition we all sign each other’s school shirts to mark the end of our school uniform wearing days!
This is my school shirt:

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Lots of people wrote very nice comments, which I found very sweet to read!

We also had a leavers assembly where I was rewarded with a certificate for completing a first aid course and I was recognised for my work in maths, that also made me smile.

Also when I got home, I was elated to find a package addressed to me from my pen pal, since she lives in America, it takes a while for me to receive her letters but the wait was definitely worth it!

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She sent me not only a letter, but a really pretty American flag printed scarf, a bracelet, a pair of glasses, a pen, and a bundle of photos of lovely sights! I also spoke to my friend from Abu Dhabi and talking to her also made me very happy. It’s these little things which all add up to make a perfect day just like today c:

A nice day

Today I went to Thorpe park!!!

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It was a school treat, since year 11 is coming to a close and the teachers always plan a trip out to Thorpe park for the year 11s as a nice celebration. The weather was great. It was so sunny that it made the day perfect. Before we set out for Thorpe park we saw a video of photos of each and every one of us from our 5 years at our school compiled together by several students. It was such a sweet film because I suddenly felt so nostalgic about my growing up at school, I saw a picture of myself from year 7 and realised how much in fact I’ve grown up and how different I am to how I was then. My years at secondary school have gone by so fast and though that makes me nervous it also makes me hopeful for the future.

These are the roller coasters I went on…

saw -the ride

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the swarm

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colusses

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rush

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vortex

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X

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tidal wave

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it was a great day, and I just thought it was awesome c:

6 days of an awkward turn of events

So the past 6 days have been like a roller coaster ride, everything’s been pretty unexpected but luckily things have now simmered down.
I’m going to go through each day in turn, if you read to the end then thank you 🙂 if you don’t I won’t hold it against you XD I totally understand…

Saturday
was initially a pretty good day because I went out with my mum to our local town centre and it was really nice to spend time with her. We went out in the light snow and it was really soothing, I also got some nice things from town: a lovely leather book, a new pretty floral lamp and a pair of really cute knee high socks. I also got a really cool tissue designed as a £10 note, they were giving them away at the bank and I thought it was just awesome…

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Cool right?

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Later in the day… was really nice because I did some more painting on a canvas I’m currently working on and I think it’s starting to come along, so I was really pleased about that. However, during the evening I received a really hurtful message from someone I thought I knew quite well, so that really upset me for a while but my parents were very sweet and supportive and helped me through it. They reminded me what a great person I am and that I shouldn’t pay any attention to silly sadistic messages sent by people who wish to hurt me. In reflection I’m proud to know I have the strength to ignore horrible things like that and to continue looking forward.

Sunday:
Was pretty quiet, the day went by pretty fast in a complete daze. I mainly relaxed and stayed calm which was nice. I did a lot of doodling in my mind journal to soothe myself which was fun. Also I got nominated for the sisterhood of the world bloggers award which I’m still raving about because it’s my first blog nomination ever and it really cheered me up on sunday so it was a really good day 🙂

Monday:
Was a worrisome day for me especially in the morning before school because It reminded me about the message I received earlier so I was very anxious about school and seeing that person who had sent it as well as being alone. However the day got much brighter because my friends comforted me with what had happened and really made me feel a whole lot better than I had before. They lifted up my spirits by telling me how better off I was with that person being completely separated from my life now, and they’re there for me whenever I need them. I’m very thankful to have them. My best friend outside of school really cheered me up too 🙂 when I came home from school I realised how relieved I was to not be in such an unhealthy and disruptive friendship like I was before because I would often come home finding myself triggered by the things that person would say, which would stir the sad feelings in my system so I’m so happy that God has guided me and given me this push in the right direction by taking out the people I don’t need from my life.

Later in the evening…
I prepared my British souvenir package for my pen-pal which I hope she really likes 😀 I sent her an Easter card since its Easter Sunday at the end of this week, along with a big cadbury bar. (Since she’s never tried a cadbury bar before :0 ) as well as a box of cadbury creme eggs, a box of Yorkshire tea (she absolutely loves tea and is dying to try Yorkshire tea!) and a packet of jelly beans (which she adores) it was so much fun preparing this package!!!

Tuesday
Was okay. A little boring but pretty mediocre to be frank, I had no lessons at school just ‘skill sessions’ which were slightly helpful but not a lot of fun 😦 however in the evening I became really unwell, as I started getting a massive headache and horrible pains in my stomach, as well as a dreadful cold. So I was pretty sleepy and bored 😦

Wednesday
I had a day off from school because I was still feeling a bit under the weather. When I’m unwell I like to doodle in my journal to distract myself, and so that’s what I did and it was really fun and therapeutic. Also one of my tumblr friends drew this really cute picture of me on her computer:
(With my tumblr URL at the bottom)

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It’s a small sweet gesture that really cheered me up 🙂
Also my beautiful and lovely mum knowing how much I love home decorated sweet jars – bought me a couple packets of jelly beans and filled a jar with all of them. She then decorated the jar with some really cute stickers and gave it to me as a gift to cheer me up for me only. My brothers were a little jealous, but obviously I did share my sweets with them, being the nice and oh so caring sister that I am XD

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Thursday:
Has been pretty good, today I broke up from school for the holidays, and because it was the last day of term there was a half day and mufti (wearing our own clothes to school) and my really cool friends invited me to go to Starbucks with them which was really sweet. I love Starbucks, we also went to McDonald’s which was extremely unhealthy but delicious! I had been dying to try a frappuccino and it was so good!!! I also had a really rich dark chocolate and chilli petite which was just delicious XD

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I just feel really good coming out of these past 6 days because there have been things which have upset me and pushed me back a little but then these small sweet little gestures that have given me that push to walk forward again and keep going. I know it may seem lame for me to take them so to heart but they really mean a lot to me because they’re the things which have made me smile when I had felt like crying or suppressed my sadness in those desperate moments. So I’m pleased, I’m relieved and I’m content with what I have and what I’m doing and where I’m looking

thank you for reading 🙂

Exams are over!!!

For the last couple of weeks I’ve been consumed with stress because of my mock exams and my external science exams too. It’s been the most horrible thing ever, constantly having to revise and worry for my exams. For those who don’t follow, perhaps you can relate to this…

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That’s pretty much how it was, day after day another exam with so little time to relax but finally they have come to an end!!!

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Today I’m not doing anything, I’m just going to be incredibly lazy because I feel as though I’ve been lacking in the laziness aspects of life recently.

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