So on Thursday I went back to school, I’m now in year 12 and I was pretty nervous about going back since I’m no longer apart of the main school which just adds to the responsibility of being the eldest in the school. It wasn’t too bad though since I caught up with my friends and the life of a sixth former, is actually pretty good. I like the independence of being a sixth former, the bit of freedom I get by being one and mainly the sense that I am growing up. I’ve also made a couple of new friends which is always nice, so to summarise I’m feeling rather hopeful of the year ahead. I know I only have around two years left of secondary school but I don’t think there’s much point in pondering over the fact, rather I should just live in the moment and work hard day by day, which seems to me an effective plan.
Sorry everyone for my inactivity, I’ve been so tied down with studying, and the boredom of not having anything remotely exciting to do thus blog about.
Things have been relatively mundane lately. I’m so excited for the end of my exams though, I have so much planned for the summer. I am determined to make this summer the best of summers…
I’ve always thought about summer as being the time of year where I’m stuck in this limbo of boredom, succumbed in my thoughts, but I want it to be different this time, and I guess when you really want something, then you make sure it happens. Which I’ll try to do.
But I do love summer so much because, not just because there’s no school, no priorities, no work, and there’s more sense of freedom. I like that, very much but also because it makes me think of nostalgic things.
When I think of summer, I think of ice cream,
I think of the sea, all blue, and calm,
The idea of making fresh home made jam,
Receiving letters in the morning, savouring every word,
baking fresh cakes in the afternoon
And reading books as I lie in my sheets,
This will be my summer, the perfect summer, for me , to be happy and to see things, and to do things. Things that will make me smile, give me hope, and give me memories.
This summer I will:
~ complete my story, to every lovely word, and every little finish, and people will know about it
~ make a new friend
~ listen to music all day, everyday
~ make a scrapbook filled with memories
~ go on an adventure, and film the whole occurrence
~ take photos of anything and everything
~ write letters; send postcards
~ drink frappuccinos all the time
~ ignore anyone who’s not worth my time
~ change my hair, change my look
~ paint all the time, just make a mess
~ do something worthwhile, simply dream.
Today, was one of the best days I’ve had in a long time, it was my last day of my year at main school, (year 11) so no more uniform, and a lot more freedom next year. As a school tradition we all sign each other’s school shirts to mark the end of our school uniform wearing days!
This is my school shirt:
Lots of people wrote very nice comments, which I found very sweet to read!
We also had a leavers assembly where I was rewarded with a certificate for completing a first aid course and I was recognised for my work in maths, that also made me smile.
Also when I got home, I was elated to find a package addressed to me from my pen pal, since she lives in America, it takes a while for me to receive her letters but the wait was definitely worth it!
She sent me not only a letter, but a really pretty American flag printed scarf, a bracelet, a pair of glasses, a pen, and a bundle of photos of lovely sights! I also spoke to my friend from Abu Dhabi and talking to her also made me very happy. It’s these little things which all add up to make a perfect day just like today c:
So the past 6 days have been like a roller coaster ride, everything’s been pretty unexpected but luckily things have now simmered down.
I’m going to go through each day in turn, if you read to the end then thank you 🙂 if you don’t I won’t hold it against you XD I totally understand…
was initially a pretty good day because I went out with my mum to our local town centre and it was really nice to spend time with her. We went out in the light snow and it was really soothing, I also got some nice things from town: a lovely leather book, a new pretty floral lamp and a pair of really cute knee high socks. I also got a really cool tissue designed as a £10 note, they were giving them away at the bank and I thought it was just awesome…
Later in the day… was really nice because I did some more painting on a canvas I’m currently working on and I think it’s starting to come along, so I was really pleased about that. However, during the evening I received a really hurtful message from someone I thought I knew quite well, so that really upset me for a while but my parents were very sweet and supportive and helped me through it. They reminded me what a great person I am and that I shouldn’t pay any attention to silly sadistic messages sent by people who wish to hurt me. In reflection I’m proud to know I have the strength to ignore horrible things like that and to continue looking forward.
Was pretty quiet, the day went by pretty fast in a complete daze. I mainly relaxed and stayed calm which was nice. I did a lot of doodling in my mind journal to soothe myself which was fun. Also I got nominated for the sisterhood of the world bloggers award which I’m still raving about because it’s my first blog nomination ever and it really cheered me up on sunday so it was a really good day 🙂
Was a worrisome day for me especially in the morning before school because It reminded me about the message I received earlier so I was very anxious about school and seeing that person who had sent it as well as being alone. However the day got much brighter because my friends comforted me with what had happened and really made me feel a whole lot better than I had before. They lifted up my spirits by telling me how better off I was with that person being completely separated from my life now, and they’re there for me whenever I need them. I’m very thankful to have them. My best friend outside of school really cheered me up too 🙂 when I came home from school I realised how relieved I was to not be in such an unhealthy and disruptive friendship like I was before because I would often come home finding myself triggered by the things that person would say, which would stir the sad feelings in my system so I’m so happy that God has guided me and given me this push in the right direction by taking out the people I don’t need from my life.
Later in the evening…
I prepared my British souvenir package for my pen-pal which I hope she really likes 😀 I sent her an Easter card since its Easter Sunday at the end of this week, along with a big cadbury bar. (Since she’s never tried a cadbury bar before :0 ) as well as a box of cadbury creme eggs, a box of Yorkshire tea (she absolutely loves tea and is dying to try Yorkshire tea!) and a packet of jelly beans (which she adores) it was so much fun preparing this package!!!
Was okay. A little boring but pretty mediocre to be frank, I had no lessons at school just ‘skill sessions’ which were slightly helpful but not a lot of fun 😦 however in the evening I became really unwell, as I started getting a massive headache and horrible pains in my stomach, as well as a dreadful cold. So I was pretty sleepy and bored 😦
I had a day off from school because I was still feeling a bit under the weather. When I’m unwell I like to doodle in my journal to distract myself, and so that’s what I did and it was really fun and therapeutic. Also one of my tumblr friends drew this really cute picture of me on her computer:
(With my tumblr URL at the bottom)
It’s a small sweet gesture that really cheered me up 🙂
Also my beautiful and lovely mum knowing how much I love home decorated sweet jars – bought me a couple packets of jelly beans and filled a jar with all of them. She then decorated the jar with some really cute stickers and gave it to me as a gift to cheer me up for me only. My brothers were a little jealous, but obviously I did share my sweets with them, being the nice and oh so caring sister that I am XD
Has been pretty good, today I broke up from school for the holidays, and because it was the last day of term there was a half day and mufti (wearing our own clothes to school) and my really cool friends invited me to go to Starbucks with them which was really sweet. I love Starbucks, we also went to McDonald’s which was extremely unhealthy but delicious! I had been dying to try a frappuccino and it was so good!!! I also had a really rich dark chocolate and chilli petite which was just delicious XD
I just feel really good coming out of these past 6 days because there have been things which have upset me and pushed me back a little but then these small sweet little gestures that have given me that push to walk forward again and keep going. I know it may seem lame for me to take them so to heart but they really mean a lot to me because they’re the things which have made me smile when I had felt like crying or suppressed my sadness in those desperate moments. So I’m pleased, I’m relieved and I’m content with what I have and what I’m doing and where I’m looking
thank you for reading 🙂
I’ve just been nominated my first blogging award ever!!! By the incredible Nanacathy whose lovely and very nice blog you can find here
Thank you again Cathy!!!
And these are the rules:
▪ Provide a link and thanks to the bloggers who nominated you.
▪ Answer 10 questions.
▪ Nominate 10 blogs that you find a joy to read.
▪ Provide links to the blogs and inform the recipients they have been nominated.
▪ Include the award logo within your post.
10 questions to answer:
1. Your favourite color? — sea green
2. Your favourite animal? — Koalas (they are so cute *.*)
3. Your favourite drink? — lemonade
4. Facebook or Twitter? — I have neither but in my opinion I think Facebook is more useful
5. Your favourite pattern? – polka dots!!!
6. Do you prefer getting or giving presents? – Giving definitely 🙂
7. Your favourite number? – 4
8. Favourite day of the week? – Saturday (my lazy day)
9. Favourite flower? – bluebells
10. What is your passion? – Writing, art, baking, reading books, my family etc. 🙂
10 blogs which are a joy to read: